So, pretty much everyone knows I am a “do” machine.  In some ways, it’s ok – it’s how I am wired.  In some other ways, it’s a sickness, driving me to always set to task, sometimes simply to accomplish ANYTHING.  As I’ve wrestled with separating myself from what I do, I have come to learn a lot about myself.  One thing I have come to realize is that I desire to not define myself by what I do.  Rather, I want what I do to flow from who I am.  See the important distinction?

Henri Nouwen says that believing “I am what I do” is one of the three main things that keeps us from believing we are God’s beloved.  So, instead of accepting that God loves us, we strive to prove and earn God’s love by accomplishing for His sake.

Oddly, I don’t believe this lie because of what anyone else says.  It’s not that I hear friends, family, or coworkers telling me i must DO.  No, it is ME that says that – much more difficult to counteract!  And, I logically know this isn’t true.  But, the untruth lies embedded deep in my heart, resistant to being rooted out.

So dear readers, what do I do?  How can I embrace the truth that I am God’s beloved simply because He loves me?   I need not earn this love.  I don’t have to prove my “lovability” – to God or anyone else.  I have some thoughts, which I will share.  But waht would you suggest?  Again, I don’t need Bible verses.  I know those – at least in my mind

So, yeah, I have lots on both the process and goal, but those are for another time. I really wanted to share a quote from Spiritual Direction, a book of Henri Nouwen’s thoughts and works published after his death. We are using it connected to our community’s Listening posture.

“Spiritual formation is the ever increasing capacity to live a spiritual life from the heart.”

What do you think? I know this isn’t a technical definition, but more of a picture. But isn’t it a great picture? Who wouldn’t want to grow in their capacity to live a spiritual life from the heart? I also like that it centers the idea in our heart, rather than the mind. Not to be dualistic, but rather to recognize that this is about inner transformatio

n, not just more info to make us better.

btw, I HIGHLY recommend this book